How is your fear doing this week? Has it subsided? Are you hiding behind your door or locked away trembling? Last week the Boston Marathon was overtaken by calmness in the chaos that ensued. I saw no anger, no rage, and no real emotion from the people. I saw jackbooted thugs forcing themselves into homes looking for 1 individual. Lockdown for 1. Americans, wake up!! What am I missing here? Look at the pictures dear ones. Nothing is as it seems. The story changed every 2 minutes. Gee whiz!! And what about that runner who fell down and no one else did? You tell me what happened. I will say little about this but those who know what I am referring to are light years ahead. That is all I am going to say. One day soon the truth will emerge and many will be horrified (that is a very strong word) about the truth. Oh, by the way, I know most could care less but Fukushima is leaking in a big way. Does it matter? What path are you heading down, dear ones? Tell me another story.
This week brings in the beginning of an eclipse cycle which is quite intense and continues to build starting with the Mercury square Pluto aspect on this past Sunday the 21st. How did your discussion go? If you didn’t get to the root of the issue, then continue to dig. The energy is still present and you can have a breakthrough at the Full Moon if you really choose to do so. Of course, I suggest you bring a bit of humor into the discussion because it may get too darn serious at times. If things got a bit cool in your relationship over the last day or so, give credit to Venus opposing Saturn. Do you feel unloved? Let it be for it too will pass because Venus and Pluto have a great time on the April 24. Passion and more passion and what more can you ask for? Your relationship can be intense and deep. Drumroll please-the FULL MOON in SCORPIO is about to arrive and it does so with lots of drama since it is also a Lunar Eclipse. Yes, the Saros cycle is upon us. It begins with the Full Moon/ lunar eclipse and on May 9/10 there is Solar Eclipse and then on May 25th there is another lunar eclipse.
The FULL MOON in SCORPIO /Lunar Eclipse at 5 degrees 45’ appears in the sky on April 25, 2013 at 3:58 EDT. Is some kind of shake-up arriving, deep sexual passion, an annoying drama, or big surprises? Who is being betrayed? Sun in Taurus likes the simple pleasures in life and possessions; the Moon in Scorpio likes complexities and mysteries. Whatever it is that has been building up inside of you needs to be spoken, let out in some way. There needs to be a balance since that is what a full moon is about. How many of you have been stuck in a rut and do the same things day after day…too much work…too much play or maybe just all work and little play? BALANCE is needed most definitely. And since this is a Lunar Eclipse also, the focus is more apparent. If you have intimate inclinations and emotional expression which is lurking in the shadows, it HAS to come out. Expressing this is important in the next 2 weeks Are you going to say what you truly feel? Do you feel something lacking in your life? Are you positive that you have everything the way you intend? If not, then how will you address the lack? What are you choosing to ignore and pretend it doesn’t exist? Time for the hidden to emerge so there are no more secrets.
Where does this Full Moon/ Lunar Eclipse fall in your chart? If it is in the 5th house like it is in mine, then it may have to do with love or creativity. That is the area of your life where surprises occur or emotional needs are lacking and the awareness comes to you or you now have to address the issues. Old wounds can be reopened ready to be healed since it sits within a degree of my Chiron in Scorpio. Or if it is in the 11th house, it may have to do with groups to which you belong; The Sun”s house is where you will find a place to release any bondage that has bogged you down. And it may come through a group creative venture for those with it in the 11th. The Moon itself brings up the old habits and fears for healing. A deeper understanding may show up unexpectedly through the shock wave that occurs. The planets which this Full Moon in Scorpio aspects will possibly bring about a healing breakthrough. Most intensity will be with planets in Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius between 2 and 10 degrees.
Sidenote-Is your relationship an ego thing or is it authentic? You tell me. Who is controlling you? Saturn is in the mix and that indicates some serious thinking and feeling like you just hit the wall. I hope not but it may feel like that anyway. It also says radical changes may be in the offing so pay attention. This is a necessary change whether you support it or not. Just go with it because it is trying to purge out the demons, the energy vampires, the controllers in your life. It could be in love, finances, everyday living, career, and/or partnerships. There are many other things that can be affected. Do it now. DETOX your life so at the New Moon in May you will have a readiness to leap wherever it takes you. A new path is emerging for many. Reminder -With Mars opposing Saturn the energy could be stuck for a bit. Just allow things to flow when they are ready.
Get out of the old paradigm already. Stop tuning into the trauma and drama of death. Scorpio does have the transformative power but it is not about disease. If I hear one more drug commercial I will throw up right now. Turn it off. Are you on track or are you hitched to big pharma? Leap off it already Write your own song instead of someone else’s. BE REAL!!!!! Be Authentic!!! The world as you knew it is fading and the Divine Feminine is coming in to balance the old patriarchal ways. Ancient structures are collapsing. Balance is needed between the masculine and feminine. It is a slow process yet comes in a fleeting moment. Stop RESISTING and LET GO already. Illusions are evaporating. Celebrate the new!!!!
Thank you for reading and thank you for you. Have a magnificent FULL MOON and upcoming weeks. Comments are always welcome. Many blessings. Until again. Love, Jan
Oh ho, here we go, traveling along to and fro and whoa, here comes a new adventure to stir up your deeply intense emotions and just maybe put you back on track again. Where have you found yourself lately? Hopefully you have been recreating your most precious relationships while Saturn is still in the diplomatic and peaceful sign of Libra. My dear ones, come October 5, 2012 Saturn is going to go into Scorpio (will it sting or will you fly?) and that is deeper than you can imagine. Think back to 1983-1985 when Saturn was in Scorpio also. What was going on in your life? How did you feel? Pretty intense feelings were up for grabs and you may have been on a sexual high.
Saturn going into Scorpio makes us look at things that need to be addressed. Some may think Saturn as a taskmaster which I think is an accurate description. This timeframe until late 2014 will activate some of your old beliefs so that you can release the parts that no longer fit. Scorpio is about passion, intense transformation and power among other things. With Saturn involved opens it up to more structure, How about asking what are your belief systems doing for you? Do they undermine your life when you could be thriving? Do they give you faith so that you can move forward on your path? Sometimes you use the beliefs systems as a crutch and an excuse to avoid certain new ideas, new thoughts and new paths which will create Oneness. And some will say how can you say that when you are saying “I go to church and I have faith” and yes, that’s true. How do you act when you are not in your church or are stuck in your old belief patterns? Are you as holy as you seem to the masses or is it a pretense and sleight of hand? Take a good look, because Saturn is going to force you to ponder these things. Saturn loves the rules and the standards set. Can you face this within?
This is a time of passionate intensity in expression whether it be sexual or otherwise, it will flow. And for some it may be a bit too much and it then becomes possessive and obsessive. Let’s hope not. Managing your power is one way to express Saturn in Scorpio. How many like to delve into the depths of your psyche? Who of you have the courage to face those old beliefs and throw them out and find your own true beliefs? Now is the time to master that fear or just let it go. Well, do it.
Neptune in Pisces fine tunes everything with its creativity aspecting the Saturn in Scorpio. It goes directly to your creative core and now you can find structure for that creative urge and depth of emotion.
Mars entered Scorpio August 23, 2012. This is another sensual aspect. Wow, things are certainly getting hotter by the moment. Some of you will feel like it is confronting you. And Mars may bring upheaval in the next 6 weeks. It leaves Scorpio the day after Saturn enters. Whew. This is going to get interesting. The darkest part of your psyche emerges and now what do you do? Will you run for the hills or hide in the basement? Watch out for that rage that is boiling way down deep within. It has got to come out. You want to stay in a healthy state and suppressed rage makes for trouble. When was the last time you expressed anger? And I don’t mean some sarcastic comments or snide remarks. (That is your anger talking). So when was it? Was it at your partner, your parents, your boss, the world in general? Maybe you are one for road rage. Tell me. In my thinking, better out with the anger than suppressing it until it takes you down. Saturn in Scorpio will make it into a more constructive anger. Find the root of the anger and you can then have it be released instead of stuffing it. You know that suppressing it will just pump up your blood vessels and lead to too much chaos within. Dump the fear and resolve it. Take the anger and let it out. Too much fear keeps you from looking at the real reason you get angry. Do you find yourself having no sexual interaction which helps release some of the angry energy in a positive way. Lots of sexual energy is going to pop up in the next couple of years.
Relationships deepen with Saturn starting in October. If you hold back from doing so, they die. Poof. Gone they are. This is a time of true love, real love or you can just forget about it because it won’t be there. Scorpio is interested in the best in their partner and that is their intention. Looking for second best…it must be another time. This is the time when you can make your decisions and walk your talk. Or there is no more. Will you allow the loss to take place? Do it right or you lose! Sorry, if that is harsh…that is a Saturn in Scorpio bottomline. You can reach out and be there for many who need you. Just remember that true love comes along very infrequently and this is a time when you take a leap or be left in the dust.
Looks like it is going to get pretty intense and Mars started the parade yesterday. There is much more going on in the news and within your hearts. Look for the Full Moon post coming up for the 31st. It is a dandy. Be well and stay in the moment. Love and blessings. Until again. Jan
Are you feeling things shifting in your life? I know that I am feeling it. Cannot exactly put my finger on it yet there is this knowing that the energy is changing and you and I are going to begin to see things more clearly and truth will win the day. How many of you have been hanging on tightly to old habits, patterns and things? C’mon, you know you have been. A majority of you, including me, have yet to truly release all the junk. Oh, it is happening in bits and pieces and some of you have no interest in doing so due to extreme conditioning and little regard for self- preservation and joyous connecting. No change can take place within our hearts and mind unless you choose it. And so many of you refuse it. So, what is all this gobbledygook that I am trying to put in perspective?
Took a look at this hanging on I have been doing. I figured out the other day that I was still angry about something. Well, who isn’t at times? No, this was a revelation because I knew I was angry at myself for allowing things to happen in my life for which I was unprepared. So, what did I do? Other then screaming a bit about why I have failed to recognize this truth, I decided to pray and meditate on it to see what the bottomline was. Once I was positive this was the issue, I asked for clearing. I also did a spiritual write and burn for it. You write the thought you wish to release, i.e. I (name) release (my anger at myself) or whatever you wish to release in the name of I AM that I AM to be transmuted in Divine Light now. Let it be released and transmuted now. Thank you in the NAME OF I AM THAT I AM. Got the gist of it, do you? Then burn the paper in a small metal container –safety first please…let it go. See what happens then. Voila. Gone with the wind. It does work. Why did I do a write and burn when I knew it was cleared? It was kind of a mind trick that has worked for me in the past. And what is so interesting I hadn’t done a write and burn in years. Too much stuck brain going on obviously. This is one way to allow release. If you search you can find other ways that do not include on the couch psychiatry sessions for twenty years unless that is what you prefer. Of course, if you do not believe that write and burns are effective, then you are just playing with matches. <grin>
So, who amongst you has anger hidden so deeply that you ignore it and your choice to ignore the feeling because you feel it is politically incorrect to show your anger. It is how you use your anger that may lead you astray. Fear comes at times from buried anger. That anger pulls on you and you just brush it off and the more you do the more that fear starts popping up and the anger is boiling underneath ready to explode. I say, get ticked off and say what you have to say. You can be angry without your words being filled with poison. Of course, everybody seems to be angry, fearful or on the other hand, pretending to be balanced. So much negativity is rearing its ugly head and many of you are letting it pull you into its claws. There is rudeness on the roads, rudeness in restaurants, anger in relationships, fear in the workplace. People judge you because there is insecurity within them. They blame you for doing things that don’t appeal to them or maybe just because they can. Show your anger by pounding a pillow, then come to them and have the discussion and get over it already. If you cannot have the discussion then that is when control is an issue and who of you wants it their way. So, do you really choose to resolve the issue?
Anger oftentimes comes from childhood conditioning when you didn’t get your way. And some of you show it and others bottle it up. I hope the bottle doesn’t explode. OR it comes from a wound of some kind. What was that something that someone said to you or vice versa? It stung, it bit you, It made you hankering for a fight. You took it personal. Oh my. You actually took it personal. Even when you are angry with yourself as I was a short time ago, I took myself personally. Wow. Well, isn’t that a big opening? You recognized that you took it personal. Did they actually mean what they said or did you get hooked into the energy? Were you having a bad day or were they? If you got angry then your reaction spoke loudly. It wasn’t about them, now was it? Nope. You took it personal and so did I. “Personal importance or taking things personally, is the maximum expression of selfishness because we make the assumption that everything is about “me”.” –don Miguel Ruiz
These childhood patterns constantly come up when you are stressed or overtired or just refusing to pay attention to what your Higher Self is trying to tell you. Could it be that your ego is so darn comfortable that the fear arises within when any change is imminent? Changes are coming in a very big way. They can be positive changes or you can fear monger and believe the changes will be negative. Whatever you choose is ok with me. Just remember that to keep the joy flowing, the anger, recognized or hidden has to transmute itself to a more detached place. Anger kills you from the inside no matter how much you deny it. Ask for guidance as to how to release the anger. It works. Anger arises from many around me on the roads and in gatherings whether family, friends or workplace. If enough of you would release your hold on your woundedness and let it go and surround it in peace and joy and love (no this is not about the hippie 60s) then things would shift in a positive direction, maybe not all at once, but in small increments which would make a major difference. Try to let it go. I know it is possible to do so. Remember holding love present is the win/win place to be.
So do you think that the darkening abyss that shrouds the country is what is affecting you? Your homes may be in foreclosure; you see your investments dwindling and your mood is down. The PTB are running scared and it will get dark before the Light shines brightly. Who knows where the Europeans will land if the money goes down in the next 10 days. You wonder if the elite will begin an all out war so they can fulfill their greed. Nothing new here. Just the same old patterns to keep us locked into a system that died years ago. Get angry if you must. Use it wisely. Pull your heads out of the sand and see the truth. Are you ready for that leap? Some of you have done it already…others may leap today. Take down the illusions which have haunted you for years. Do pay attention. May the blessings shine upon you and thank you for you and your support. Until again. Love, Jan
Here I am back again wondering how those who had to deal with Hurricane Irene made out and those of you who are now having to face the effects of Hurricane Lee are doing. Was there anybody who actually helped another individual or family in the throes of this weather emergency? Did you send your love out to those in need? Sometimes in the midst of our own needs we forget that others may have to walk through the muck too. So, what have you experienced in the past week and are you considering taking a leap in any part of your life? Was a busy time these past days and the fearmongers were truly out in force. I hunkered down in my abode and thought really good thoughts to keep the weather to a minimum in my area. Stay safe as the changes are coming rapidly and do continue to pay attention in all areas of your life. This week is volatile in some ways or maybe it is just a shift that is coming into action. Or the fear mode may take effect in a big way. Watch the 7th of September.
As I continue to watch the fear rise up in some of you I think about how much love is being kept out of the picture. What else is there besides love? Do you have a relationship right now? Did you tell that person you love him/her? If not, what are you waiting for? Love is all that matters. Do you know that the more hugs you give the better you feel? I am sure most of you are aware of this. Fear weakens everything within. It raises your blood pressure, creates havoc with your nervous system and is the opposite of love. Hey, you say, isn’t hate the opposite of love? No, it is not. Hate is part of love, because you can love and hate a person at the same time. Not saying that’s a good thing but it does occur. Fear is not part of love. Fear is deadly to one’s loving. Once fear enters love runs away, bolts out the door. Fear prevents love from showing its face to that other person. How many times in your life have you been fearful in a relationship and something happened to create chaos? Was the chaos from the fear within you or did the other person do something to create fear? You tell me. Fear is deadly.
How many of you hold grudges because someone said something that you disliked? You felt they were attacking you. And you actually owned what that individual said. Oh my. Get a grip here. You want to own those words that came out of fear and now you say he/she attacked you with words. Please. Any attacks are either that individual venting their hostility at you and it just so happens you are there or you are reflecting that and you are the one who is fearful or angry. So, is that grudge worth it? I thought you understood that the Divine God wants you to be loving. Show love, be love, share love. And if you find that the one you love has no clue about loving, then what do you do? Hold a grudge? Well? Round in circles you go. LOVE IS. You all have moments of frustration, of anger, of fear and just plain don’t want to be bothered. Is that wrong? The part that creates chaos is when you stop showing the love in your heart. Is that what you are doing? I hope not. Love never ends. I can hear some of you saying, it sure does. NOPE. Sorry, untrue. Mainstream BS. Love is always present unless you are some robot in hiding or alien abductor. If it is always present then why do you fail to show it, share it, be it? Obviously it is the political correctness, the conditioning of childhood, the old worn out patterns and the fear again. Gee whiz, go away already (fear) and let the love shine through. I could write pages and pages about love and some will continue to dispute it. As I said love never ends. If you insist it does, then I say you are experiencing lust. Love is in the heart and lust is not.
Are you fearful of being hurt in love, dear ones? I do agree with Don Miguel Ruiz who says that fear hurts; love does not. If there is hurt involved or what you perceive as ‘hurt’ then maybe you need to look at whether you really love yourself and why you choose to be on the fear track. If you feel obligated, that is fear. Love has no obligations. Love has no expectations. Love is unconditional. Fear is when you think that you love someone only when you can control them, when you like the image presented. Fear is not kindness although it may show up as kindness yet you are impatient with the lover. How can you be so impatient? To love is to accept. You love for no reason. It just is. You do something because it brings joy. Love is fun. If you experience the fear track some work needs to be done due to past connections, past patterns. Sometimes it happens that you love deeply and it goes nowhere. Look at it as an opportunity to create peace between you because fear is definitely still present. Love has been buried due to external forces in your life. Love is not convenience. Love may have entered and the fear overcame it. You have to keep the love flowing between you no matter what goes on. Are you angry when your loved one doesn’t act, speak or be what you expect him/her to be? Is that love? No it is control. If you feel that you don’t like him/her then maybe you need to find someone who you do like to be with no matter how they act or who they are within. Another thing that comes into play may be old beliefs which have been forced upon you from your childhood. Are those thoughts and feelings and beliefs keeping you from knowing the love that is in your heart? You tell me. You are blocking out the love because that fear thing exists. (Charts can be checked for any of these kinds of things.) I have always thought that if you love someone you need to let them go because like a butterfly they will return if the love is real. Love is responsible. Fear runs away. And by the way, “anger is only fear with a mask.” (DMR) So, what do you plan to do about it? Keep holding onto the fear track or do you intend to really love from your heart unconditionally. And don’t tell me you have fallen out of love because it is untrue. No one falls out of love. It didn’t exist in the first place…total hogwash. You liked what that individual’s exterior, nothing else. So be it.
I would love to hear how you are doing in love. Remember we are all connected and love from me goes out to all of you every day. The more love shared will bring about more peace and joy. There are those who have no love as I have said before. Those individuals will soon be a forgotten part of our lives. Peaceful thoughts, warm feelings and lots of love to you as you travel the road that will bring you to a big leap in consciousness and elevating you to your truth. Keep on the loving track. May the angels surround you and may you find that truth that opens your heart to love. Have a wonderful week dear ones. Many blessings, much love. Until again, Jan