Category Archives: LOVE and FEAR
So much is going on dear ones. Who slept fitfully last night? I know that Moon was opposing Mars in Virgo and boy what a restless high energy night. Now I feel so tired. EEK! The eclipses did their jobs of starting the ball rolling and now it is up to you to continue the energetic to finding the truth in all. What a wild ride that affects us all. There is so much change in the air that even though you may feel it, there are others of you are oblivious to it. Layers upon layers of the old paradigm fall away. Those who have the riches of the world will soon be in turmoil since they have stolen what belongs to all of you, not just the select few. It has been setup like that for eons of time and the last hurrah for those who have power is coming to seek them out. You also have power and have you ever thought about actually being in the power? That inner power will help you weather whatever shows up in your life. Some of you will be thinking, what is going to happen? Fear thinking may show up. Did you ever find that fear wins the moment? Does fear offer you truth or love? Heck no. It appears because you forgot you are LOVE. Look at it as a perfect way to gauge whether that love is buried deep within. When the door opens and fear appears, ask it to leave. It has no power over you anymore.
You may wonder why I continue speaking of this fear that seems to show up sporadically. Well, it is obvious to me that many of you still hang onto this for some unknown reason. Is it fear about money or not having something that you think you need? Is it fear about not being loved? Is it fear of something happening at your workplace? Fear is everywhere as long as you allow it to take over your life. Let’s go beyond fear and face the demons and bring out the truth and what a difference life can be. This feeling that comes over you, the anxiety, fear and otherwise, is unreal. It appears to teach you. Love is.
Have you ever noticed that when you are in a place of love within, the place where the Divine resides, that your life flows smoothly with very few bumps. And now that Jupiter goes into Gemini at 1:22pm EDT on June 11, 2012 and it is going to be there for a year until June 26, 2013. Things will start to feel somewhat lighter. People will want to talk and communicate but our nation’s fiscal woes may get worse since everyone seems to be scattered doing too many things to concentrate. It joins the Sun and Venus in Gemini. If you have any planets near the first 5 degrees of Gemini, they will be overly energized by the positive Jupiter vibrations in the next few weeks. Some of you may find new opportunities especially if you have a North Node close by. This will happen through others and if you don’t pay attention, they disappear. So please open to anything that may help you on your true path. Jupiter going into Gemini can also mean a time of hyperactivity. Your brain doesn’t stop thinking, worrying and finding more ways to make you crazy and anxiety-prone. You want to talk about chatty things, gossip and be superficial. Oh joy. Know this and keep yourself from getting pulled into this kind of scenario. Then there are those who may question your thinking or actually prod you into a controversial debate. Do you need that? This is a time to get to the larger truth along the path and get rid of all those empty concepts. On June 13/14 Jupiter will touch on the Solar Eclipse point from May 20.
The energy that is slowly rising in this timeframe can truly make you feel like you are drawn and quartered if you are off track. Seriously! Whatever is coming up for you it is time to stop pretending and walk through all the junk that is being thrown at you. Yes, I mean you and you and you. You are being poked and prodded to listen to your heart. Forget what MS Media says. Are you still holding on to beliefs from your parents? Look at the bottomline. Are you worthy? Are you living your life for you or other people? Why does it the old junk have such a hold on you? Where is this self-talk taking you? Does it enhance your life or have you convinced yourself that life is a struggle and as long as you can ignore it, it will go away? Not happening this time. It is off base in this new paradigm. If you are living your truth, life flows. If not, Humpty Dumpty falls off the wall. The only way to put him back together again is to have a reevaluate and move through it. When you are off base, then things go haywire and it is distracting and distressing. So, what will you do about this? Changes are arriving in everyone’s life. The changes come to say, pay attention. If you choose to ignore the shifting energy, then you may feel very beat up and a bit worse for wear. No joke. So, let’s move forward on your path and take a small leap. The tipping point is coming to your neighborhood. Will you be able to face the music? It is time to look at your life and see what is working and what is not. And then decide if you wish to keep on living in a way that is untrue. Your choice.
Enough said. May the blessings of the Divine flow through your life and bring joy and love to you and much prosperity. Thank you for all your support. Until again. With love, Jan
Happy Valentine’s Day – the day the world stops to celebrate love. There is a frenzy to buy cards, gifts and any bauble or bangle there is for your favorite sweetie. I am a big fan of the day. I thought I would get lots of cards. Of course, Valentine’s Day is only one day. Celebrating love for one day and forgetting it the rest of the year is crazy? Do you forget about expressing love beyond this day? If anyone has an answer for me I would love to hear it. How many of you actually tell your dream girl/guy that you love them on other days? Do you say it more than once, every so often? Many have told me you don’t need to say it all the time because it is understood by your actions. Well, honey, I love to hear the words and you know what, why not give me what makes me feel good? Oh, I know, no one can make another happy, but it sure does boost one’s mood at times to hear those three words. If it makes your dream girl/guy’s day by hearing those three little words, what is the hesitation? By failing to express one’s feelings, doesn’t that build up some kind of volcano ready to explode? And then one day you no longer can keep it in and along comes a big bang. Tell that dream girl/guy that you love them if you do. Possessing someone is far from love. I see that too often around me. Are you one of those who gives love little credence and prefers to sacrifice that part of your life for approval, control and money with so little interest in intimate partnerships? How many do that? I think it is a rampant disease. Love is worth it. Have you ignored expressing love due to old patterns, habits, desires? I hear some of you saying you don’t really care about love. Well, no one said you had to care about it. Just express it, show it, and send it out to everyone. Too many are jaded and want the easy road. So, you were hurt a few times along the way. BIG DEAL! What’s the fear about? May get hurt again…obviously you didn’t understand why that person came in your life. Maybe it was bad timing. Maybe you needed to have a trigger to clear out the sludge of the past and see the truth about yourself. Love is. How sad to go through life without feeling LOVE. God is Love and Love is God.
There is no hesitation for me to express how I feel. That is being authentic. When I feel good I allow myself to share my joy. If I am having a down day for whatever reason, then do I share my feelings? Should I hide in a corner and wait for the mood to pass so others see only the positive in me? Hey, wonderful you, my need to express is just as important as your need to express. Of course, sometimes you and I both get carried away and say things that may be insensitive or hurtful. (I am not talking about abusive relationships here.) Should we break off the connection because that happened whether in friendship or love? Heck no. That’s taking it personally and nothing is worth taking personal. Get over it already. Yes, there are some who would say I haven’t gotten over some stuff. Oh, I have. Takes longer sometimes to clear out the debris and let go the old habits, patterns involved. And in right timing it is released. Nothing happens instantly unless you have mastered it. And if it does, believe me it comes back sooner than later to check you out and see if you really let go. Have you? Love has no controls. You cannot demand a partner or a friend to be the way you fantasize them to be. Wouldn’t that be a fun time? Hey, love, be in my life filled with sharing and laughter but if I choose to control you, I will. Love and control have no connection. Love is always about the other. The more you give love, the more you get back a hundredfold. And it will come back in ways that you least expect, sometimes so far different than what you intended that you may fail to recognize it at first. Remember it is for your highest good.
When I mentioned about repressing feelings and eventual explosiveness, I found something in Whitney Houston’s chart that indicated this. She was an angel sent from above to share her gift with the world. I had the pleasure of seeing her perform many years ago in the 90s. It was extraordinary. What a personable lady (very Leo) with lots of verve. Yet there was a dark side that reared its ugly head when she met and married Bobby Brown (my opinion). She began to feel insecure and not being able to live up to the adulation. Although she was magnetic and filled with charisma before her marriage, the darkness crept in through projection. The last few months she had Pluto transit squaring her Mars in Libra which gave her more ambition possible. Pluto pumps up the energy and since Mars is energy, it is over the top. With whom did she have a power struggle at this time? The other side of the coin is any suppressed anger still lingering within could bring some very shady characters to her life or danger. It is not what it seems. She ticked someone off recently, maybe even that day, because she did not agree with what was said and it was very emotional for her. She stuck to her guns about her feelings and someone did not like it. It had to do with a partnership. She was NOT going to kill herself. Why would she? Have you jumped on the media bashing bandwagon before all the facts are in? Maybe you need to think for yourself. Didn’t she fly to California for this celebration and the Grammy’s? More to this then anyone is saying. Who was in her room before she died? Mars was retro in her 7th house of partnerships conjunct her fated VERTEX. Wow, now I wonder if…..? And I bet the ranch it wasn’t done by her. It was building for weeks. Someone was not happy with her. If she wanted to kill herself, why fly out to the West Coast when she could have done it anywhere. I was appalled that they actually had that party when she was dead in another part of the hotel. Crass. Why not wait until the next day and then do a tribute party? Is this what America has become? I doubt that was a loving response on their part. Can you say zombies? We will always love you Whitney. RIP.
Sending you all blessings and lots of LOVE today and through the coming days. May your dreams become realities. Thank you so much for who you are and what you do. Until Again, Jan
Well, it’s 2012 and here we go again. Warmongers are set to blow the world up, the doomsday people are ready for the gloom that they want to manifest, and the Earth is crying her eyes out. We need to help the Earth heal and stop this craziness before it takes us away into oblivion that many are trying to bring about. There was a video I saw recently about that which said in order for the Earth to shift into a higher place of consciousness and heal it needs you and me to help it. What can we do? If you are reading this blog you probably feel the same way I do. Let’s awaken those who continue to sleep in their cozy existences. There are many who will choose to abandon the highest ways as they continue on their paths to doom. Yet, you and I are looking to rise up to higher consciousness and awaken others. How can we do this? Affirm that “I am willing to shift with my beloved Mother Earth.” It is recommended to say 3-4 times per day.
So much is going on around me and my favorite topic, the energy of LOVE and how it can help you get through the year. It is interesting how different I feel in this year of 2012. It is like something shifted immensely and here I am still going ahead, feeling better than I did just a few weeks ago. Did any of you feel some shifting within, or around you? This past weekend there was a Venus/Neptune aspect which was truly romantic. How many of you experienced a breakthrough lovewise? It was almost ethereal. And Venus now has come upon Chiron in Pisces in the last day or so which could bring about major relationship healing. On the other hand Chiron can manifest from a negative place and be truly insensitive because of its woundedness. Chiron is the wounded healer. So, did you come from the higher place or did you unconsciously hurt someone? It is a beautiful aspect if you stay on the higher ground and the deepest healing in a relationship can take place. Have any of you experienced this in the last day or so? Still is possible in the coming week. Look for it. Come from the deepest love and heal your relationship if needed.
Have you ever noticed how love motivates you? When you have a loving interaction and are involved with that special someone, don’t you feel uplifted? Inspired? I know that being in a loving relationship has always inspired me to go beyond the ordinary, silently telling me that I could conquer the world. Do women do this? Well, you know what I mean. The feelings that surface are joyful and can be magnificent if you are coming from that positive side of yourself. Have you noticed that love makes your mind clearer? When you truly love someone you stop feeling sorry for yourself. You love yourself even more unless, of course, you never did and that is what brings about any difficulties that may arise, lack of self-love. Love attracts love. So, if you have buried love so deeply because you fear loving, then do you really think you will find it manifesting in your life? Love is God.
If you find yourself acting out, do you think that it is a reflection of the partner’s feelings which may be coming from the unconscious? Does he/she recognize that? Or is it taken as a negative against them? Since we do tend to be mirrors for other,, that is possible. Sometimes there may be a past life issue, many in fact, which will trigger something within you or your partner and will start to be a burden on the relationship due to unsolved issues which haven’t been recognized. Or there may be a previous relationship which is now being played out with you because your partner didn’t resolve it with the other partner. Or you may be doing that also. Complex…not! Just layers of an onion which have to be peeled back to see what is truly happening and let go once it surfaces.
My suggestion to start the New Year in love is to forgive, have compassion and understanding, Love in your life manifests many things positive. It is a deep spring which flows from the Divine within and without. You are created to be love. Do you run from it because it scares you? Take love out of your life. What do you think will happen? That’s like taking the Divine from your life. With the Venus/Chiron aspect it is telling you to open to that healing within. If you do that then you can manifest it in your relationship. Let love energize you. Stop pushing it away and staying stuck in the muck of your own junk. There are really sweet things going on so please take advantage of any opportunities that may show up the end of the week Venus/Pluto can bring pleasure and boundless healing for those who are open to it. Keep that smile intact and as John Michael Montgomery says in a song,
“…If you’ve got love you can move a mountain
A little bit further down the line
You can do it all at once or one rock at a time
You can turn an ordinary picture into a priceless work of art
It’s what you can do if you’ve got love in your heart…”
What a fantastic time to be alive. Love will help you take a leap further than before. Love is all there is, dear ones. Let it be manifest in your life this year in a magnificent way. May you be blessed until again. The Full Moon shows up on the weekend. Pay attention and thanks for reading. Love, Jan
Here I am back again wondering how those who had to deal with Hurricane Irene made out and those of you who are now having to face the effects of Hurricane Lee are doing. Was there anybody who actually helped another individual or family in the throes of this weather emergency? Did you send your love out to those in need? Sometimes in the midst of our own needs we forget that others may have to walk through the muck too. So, what have you experienced in the past week and are you considering taking a leap in any part of your life? Was a busy time these past days and the fearmongers were truly out in force. I hunkered down in my abode and thought really good thoughts to keep the weather to a minimum in my area. Stay safe as the changes are coming rapidly and do continue to pay attention in all areas of your life. This week is volatile in some ways or maybe it is just a shift that is coming into action. Or the fear mode may take effect in a big way. Watch the 7th of September.
As I continue to watch the fear rise up in some of you I think about how much love is being kept out of the picture. What else is there besides love? Do you have a relationship right now? Did you tell that person you love him/her? If not, what are you waiting for? Love is all that matters. Do you know that the more hugs you give the better you feel? I am sure most of you are aware of this. Fear weakens everything within. It raises your blood pressure, creates havoc with your nervous system and is the opposite of love. Hey, you say, isn’t hate the opposite of love? No, it is not. Hate is part of love, because you can love and hate a person at the same time. Not saying that’s a good thing but it does occur. Fear is not part of love. Fear is deadly to one’s loving. Once fear enters love runs away, bolts out the door. Fear prevents love from showing its face to that other person. How many times in your life have you been fearful in a relationship and something happened to create chaos? Was the chaos from the fear within you or did the other person do something to create fear? You tell me. Fear is deadly.
How many of you hold grudges because someone said something that you disliked? You felt they were attacking you. And you actually owned what that individual said. Oh my. Get a grip here. You want to own those words that came out of fear and now you say he/she attacked you with words. Please. Any attacks are either that individual venting their hostility at you and it just so happens you are there or you are reflecting that and you are the one who is fearful or angry. So, is that grudge worth it? I thought you understood that the Divine God wants you to be loving. Show love, be love, share love. And if you find that the one you love has no clue about loving, then what do you do? Hold a grudge? Well? Round in circles you go. LOVE IS. You all have moments of frustration, of anger, of fear and just plain don’t want to be bothered. Is that wrong? The part that creates chaos is when you stop showing the love in your heart. Is that what you are doing? I hope not. Love never ends. I can hear some of you saying, it sure does. NOPE. Sorry, untrue. Mainstream BS. Love is always present unless you are some robot in hiding or alien abductor. If it is always present then why do you fail to show it, share it, be it? Obviously it is the political correctness, the conditioning of childhood, the old worn out patterns and the fear again. Gee whiz, go away already (fear) and let the love shine through. I could write pages and pages about love and some will continue to dispute it. As I said love never ends. If you insist it does, then I say you are experiencing lust. Love is in the heart and lust is not.
Are you fearful of being hurt in love, dear ones? I do agree with Don Miguel Ruiz who says that fear hurts; love does not. If there is hurt involved or what you perceive as ‘hurt’ then maybe you need to look at whether you really love yourself and why you choose to be on the fear track. If you feel obligated, that is fear. Love has no obligations. Love has no expectations. Love is unconditional. Fear is when you think that you love someone only when you can control them, when you like the image presented. Fear is not kindness although it may show up as kindness yet you are impatient with the lover. How can you be so impatient? To love is to accept. You love for no reason. It just is. You do something because it brings joy. Love is fun. If you experience the fear track some work needs to be done due to past connections, past patterns. Sometimes it happens that you love deeply and it goes nowhere. Look at it as an opportunity to create peace between you because fear is definitely still present. Love has been buried due to external forces in your life. Love is not convenience. Love may have entered and the fear overcame it. You have to keep the love flowing between you no matter what goes on. Are you angry when your loved one doesn’t act, speak or be what you expect him/her to be? Is that love? No it is control. If you feel that you don’t like him/her then maybe you need to find someone who you do like to be with no matter how they act or who they are within. Another thing that comes into play may be old beliefs which have been forced upon you from your childhood. Are those thoughts and feelings and beliefs keeping you from knowing the love that is in your heart? You tell me. You are blocking out the love because that fear thing exists. (Charts can be checked for any of these kinds of things.) I have always thought that if you love someone you need to let them go because like a butterfly they will return if the love is real. Love is responsible. Fear runs away. And by the way, “anger is only fear with a mask.” (DMR) So, what do you plan to do about it? Keep holding onto the fear track or do you intend to really love from your heart unconditionally. And don’t tell me you have fallen out of love because it is untrue. No one falls out of love. It didn’t exist in the first place…total hogwash. You liked what that individual’s exterior, nothing else. So be it.
I would love to hear how you are doing in love. Remember we are all connected and love from me goes out to all of you every day. The more love shared will bring about more peace and joy. There are those who have no love as I have said before. Those individuals will soon be a forgotten part of our lives. Peaceful thoughts, warm feelings and lots of love to you as you travel the road that will bring you to a big leap in consciousness and elevating you to your truth. Keep on the loving track. May the angels surround you and may you find that truth that opens your heart to love. Have a wonderful week dear ones. Many blessings, much love. Until again, Jan